Oh if I only could tell people exactly what I am thinking, the world would be chaotic and WW3 would be starting right about now..
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When fire rages and gets destructive, you immediately try to put it out by throwing sand and water, is it not? In most buildings, people keep a stock of these in readiness. Are you aware that you have six flames burning inside you? They are lust, anger, greed, attachment, pride and hatred. They can emerge any time. What do you have in store to put them out? Always keep a ready stock of Truth, Right Conduct, Peace, Love and Non-Violence in plenty. These five will help you scotch the flames of your six enemies, whenever they are lit; these values are very effective extinguishers.
Rant
1. For some reason, I cannot stay up!! I’d rather go to sleep on time and screw up the test the next day.
2. I am legit scared I won’t pass the IB.
3. I am legit scared that I won’t get into medical school.
4. I know fear is just an obstacle and bla bla *enter cliche proverb about fear here*, but what if it doesn’t work that way. For me, I always do best when I least expect it..
5. I don’t know, I am scared of “failing” in college.. not getting C’s and things like that, but after having a friend set the standard so high for success in college— someone who is going to be going to duke medical school with a full tuition this fall mind you— I just feel like a failure next to him.
6. I can’t pray to God to make it happen because apparently He doesn’t give me everythign I ask for.
7. To summarize the above.. I’m afraid of being a failure. But this feeling comes and goes. Other days, I could give a fuc about anything.
8. It’s so weird, I was looking at an old friends wall to wall on fb…wow we were so close back then. Just so weird how friendships change from a sibling relationship to stranger status. Kind of sad too.
9. Just cannot study anymore. I know realize the importance of being organized and learning things the first time it was taught. I swear, no more “I dont get it, but I’ll just learn it later”..because I never do.. -.-
10. It would suck if I didn’t pass the IBs.
11. Sometimes I wonder if I have friends. I also wonder if I’ll miss my high school friends when I go to college. But then again, many are going to Wayne.. I also wonder if I’ll make new friends- please God can I make new friends??
12. I wonder what it’ll be like living in a dorm. Just as I’m getting ready to graduate, I realize just how much I’m going to miss my family, and how I’m going to miss living in my house, and I”m thankful that I’ll be so close to home, but just far away enough.
13. for bio, I still have to go over:
*Photosynthesis & Respiration
*Ecology
*Everything HUMAN BODY STUFF.
14. For Spanish, I still have to:
Pray that I will still remember how to write in Spanish :/
15. I’m sleepy already, wtf! I am not done studying! Ugh..
16. I’m liking the weather.
17. This is turning into a diary post so I’ll end it here.
My plan for the first day after IBs are over :)
Music Playlist:
Somewhere Over the Rainbow- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_DKWlrA24k
Make My Own Sunshine- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJNFF_N5ngs
Lazy Song- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJNFF_N5ngs
I’m Yours- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkHTsc9PU2A
Bubbly- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWGqoCNbsvM
Fireflies- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rO3gg2cVfxg
One Way Ticket- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BCA7yb5zZN4
To summarize: listen to music and do lots of nothing :)
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